I have a confession: I’m not that great at speaking Spanish. A friend once told me that, for her, learning another language was like trying to run uphill, in three feet of snow, in the dark. I would have to agree, only would venture to add that said runner should probably be afflicted with a stomach ache, too. Although maybe I’m just biased, since some new form of bacteria hit me yesterday. Fortunately no one I know in Huancayo speaks English, so I have no option but to continue improving. It’s a frustrating process, full of highs and lows - one day I’ll be chatting to my heart’s content, slipping in a few slang words, and hardly thinking twice about the fact that I’m speaking Spanish, and the next day find myself forgetting how to conjugate one of the most basic of verbs!
Break in blog: I have to pause to eat the french fry, egg, and hamburger sandwich someone just handed me.
Needless to say, the process of learning another language is accompanied with some humor to alleviate the frustration. You can’t help but laugh upon realizing, hours after the fact, that when trying to say that your mother hates jasmine tea, you accidently said you hate your mother. Whoops. Why was I talking about my mother’s tea preferences? I have no idea. Luckily when you sound stupid 60% of the time you get used to laughing at yourself, and learn how to put aside your ego. Sometime after my first month of living here I realized I was so used to making language errors, sticking out, being yelled, whistled, and stared at in the streets, and being dependent on other people in the process of getting to know my new world, that it was practically impossible to be embarrassed by anything! I should admit that I had this realization after dropping a bottle of water on a guest speaker at one of CEDEPAS’ conferences…in front of about 100 people. Oh well.
The other day a new found friend asked me whether I felt uncomfortable walking around the city because of the unwanted attention. I told her that for me, uncomfortable was just the new comfortable. The truth is, in just one year of living here, I won’t manage to blend in – I look different, I sound different, and I have different cultural norms. The beauty of this, however, is that it’s okay. The common bind of humanity is far greater than our differences. In the words of Dutch priest Henri Nouwen, “it is good to be and especially to be one of many. What counts are not the special and unique accomplishments in life that make me different from others, but the basic experiences of sadness and joy, pain and healing, which make me a part of humanity.” He wrote these words while living Peru. Here in Peru, I, too, have found people with whom I can laugh, tell secrets, contemplate the state of the world and of God, and share dreams. So what I’m really trying to say, is that I’m happy here with this new life of mine, despite the days that I speak Spanish like a 5 year-old.*
*That being said, I can’t pass up a rare opportunity to brag…the other night I was informed that I had been talking in my sleep – in Spanish!!


















